It's a discouraging thing.
da Creature is going backwards right now in every single way imaginable. I don't seem to be able to stop the movement into chaos and darkness at the moment. I feel broken and sad. I can't imagine how out of control he feels.
Here's hoping it's a transition to better things, not a spiral into worse ones. We won't know for a good long while. He is keeping whatever is bothering him really close and not sharing at all with me.
Things that have returned, seemingly all of a sudden:
- not being able to go to sleep (it's been two years since this was even an issue)
- toe walking all the time
- being "weepy" and out of proportion emotionally
- aggression at school
- dis-cooperation (my term for his general unwillingness to participate in good things, seeking rather to pursue the negative ones just because he feels like it---not oppositional, not attention-seeking, just a descent into "let's make the worse choice possible and see how that goes.")
- the nose picking 'til it bleeds and finger tip peeling have ramped up in the past two weeks
Time will heal. Summer will heal. In the meantime, off-roading with the creature on this emo detour from Hell is getting a little tiresome.
Oh, and his IEP meeting is May 1. Goodie.